First Birthday

            My son’s first birthday is today.  I can’t believe it’s been a year.  It has been the most defining year of my life.  I am mom.  My son has changed who I am…for the better.  I am more self-confident, self-aware, and secure person.  I love another human more than I could imagine loving my spouse or myself.  It is amazing. Everyday with my son is amazing.  There is just no other word if it.  I am amazed with how much strength I never knew I possessed.  I am amazed with my husband’s capability for demonstration such a depth of  support and compassion.  I am amazed with my son’s growth and development.

One Year photo by Heidi Kalish June 2012

To celebrate his birthday, my husband and I wrote him short letters to express how we are feeling in this moment.  Here is mine:

Dear Jacob,

Today is your very first birthday and I love you more than I can express.  Your birth was the most magical moment of my entire life. You lay on my chest looking into my eyes and in that moment I knew I was your mommy and you would change my life.  This year has been the most amazing time; filled with priceless memories. Your personality, intelligence, and on-the-go attitude fill my days with happiness.  Your smile can brighten a room, your laugh is contagious, and your curiosity is astounding.  You are always watching people, animals, cars, the sky…always learning, wondering why.  It is my most favorite thing about you.  I wake every morning smiling knowing how lucky I am to spend my day with you.  Even as you grow, you will always be my baby and I will always be proud to be your mommy.

Love, Mommy